Long time, no type. I realize I have not written a blog entry in almost forever. Its been a busy/bad past two months. Always so much drama. I am still super busy trying to finalize everything up with school before my start date on 3/21. I plan to write tonight and update what we have been doing w/ what will no doubt be a bijillion pictures. :-)

Mama Gets Cracked

So today I went to the chiropractor for the first time in like......7 years? They warned me I might be a little sore and groggy, but my shoulder blade is on FIRE. I'm pretty sure I pulled a muscle under my left shoulder blade and I will have to see a REAL doctor to help with that. Its hard to let it heal when I have to carry Liam around and work and everything. Oh well, my responsibilities come first. Anyway, I am just gonna take some medicine and go to be early tonight, but I have been doing so good w/ blogging all week, I wanted to keep the flow going! Goodnight blogger friends!

Products this Madre Loves (Bath and Body Edition)

One thing I rarely mention on this blog is how much I am into beauty and fashion. I definitely think it is important to keep yourself looking your best. Even when you only want to wear sweat pants every day and never wash your hair because you don't get much sleep and your hair is constantly pulled or you're spit up on. Yes, true beauty comes from the inside, but why not have a little bit of fun in taking care of the outside too. I love reading product reviews on what works for people and what doesn't. I'll give you a little bit of insight on the products I use and what works for me (it may not work for you, though, and thats ok). We'll start with my bath/body products:

Clean & Clear Foaming Facial Cleanser (sensitive skin)

I use this product as my every day face wash. I use it to remove makeup and everything, it is so easy on the skin and leaves it feeling smooth and soft.

Artec Kiwi Color Reflector Shampoo & Conditioner

My hair stylist recommended this set to me about a year or two ago and I haven't changed. It helps with color treated hair and it smells yummy!

St. Ives Apricot Scrub

OMG I love this stuff. Now its a little harsh on your skin (since its a scrub) so I definitely wouldn't recommend using it every day because it will dry you out. I rarely get any blemishes or blackheads and I swear this is the major reason. I also use it on the backs of my arms if I get any little bumps, it smoothes it right back out. It doesn't smell the best and its not soft, but it works so that's what matters to me.

Clairol Shimmer LightsI just started using this stuff a couple months of ago when I started going lighter with my highlights again. Let me just tell you this stuff STINKS. It's definitely not a product you want to use before a hot date or anything. But it is really good at taking out that brassy/coppery undertones when dark haired people try to go light. Also should mention it is not an every day use shampoo.

Warm Vanilla Sugar Shower Cream
This is only the current smell I am using, but I love all of the Bath and Body Works shower creams. It leaves your skin really soft and all of the scents are amazing!

Bath and Body Works Aromatherapy Sleep Warm Milk and Honey
I love baths. I try to take a nice relaxing bath at least every two days. This was a Christmas present from my mommy and I love it. It produces just a little bit of bubbles and foam, but it relaxes you (somehow) and makes you sooooo soft. It's great to use before crawling into bed!

**Oh and by the way, I am not getting paid for any of this. I honestly just like these products**

Please share what products work and don't work for you!!

When the Grass Isn't So Green

Ok....most of the time I don't mind being a single mother. It definitely has its hardships, but its worth every minute. What I am having a hard time with is dealing with shared custody. It is supposed to get easier as we go, but it isn't. HE was so cruel and uncaring during my pregnancy. When I think back on the beginning of the "custody battle" (it really wasn't a battle) I was just so terrified a judge/the courts were going to rip this precious little joy out of my hands 50% of the time that I gave in too easily. Someone who completely ignores the person carrying his child for weeks, months on end (even with pleas about our unborn child) is not ready to have responsibility for that unborn person. Not to mention not getting a license or cleaning his house until I had to throw a fit. Don't get me wrong, I would never take Liam's father away, I was always okay with parenting time, but if he ever attempts to take me to court again, I will fight for full custody. I have to tell him when and how to feed him...9 months later.... change his diaper more than every 4 hours, lots of things he should already know. He doesn't pitch in with formula or food or toys. He thinks his life is the only one that counts (no change from pre-Liam) and always disrespects me. His "I'll do what I want, when I want and I don't care who it affects" mentality is really starting put me at my breaking point. I know this is a shallow rant because I really shouldn't get into too much detail, but it is really getting to me. I just wish he was completely out of my life, period, but then I look at those big blue-gray eyes and that half toothless grin and I remember that everything I do is for him. So I'll deal. But it really weighs me down. Does anyone have input on ways to cope with shared custody with someone you really dislike hate (yes, sad, but I do)???

9 Months

9 (ish, we were a few days early) Months:
Length/Height: 27 1/4, 25th percentile (short baby, so far)
Head: 18, 65th percentile
Weight: 19 lbs 7 oz., 45th percentile
Size 3 diapers
Some 3-6, but mostly 6-9 months clothing
Size 3-4 shoes (Liam hates shoes, like his mommy)

**What Liam is Doing**

• Pull himself from laying to sitting
• Full on crawling now
• Pull himself up to a standing position
• Eating a lot more "big people food"
• Trying to talk, can repeat wa, wa for water and he seems to know ba, ba for bottle really well
• Drinks all his "milk" through a bottle now, no more breastfeeding
• Walks along the couch, while holding on
• Getting 4 more teeth on top
• Laughs a lot
• Tries to sing to certain TV show theme songs (like SpongeBob)
• Gets very excited when you say its bathtime
  

At the doctor's office

Liam's first day at daycare

Fish or No Fish

For 24 years I have been a pisces...now I am not? What is up with all this nonsense about astrological signs. What does everyone think of this stuff? And with the introduction of the new zodiac sign, Liam is now an Aries. I have no idea what all of this means. All I know, is whenever I'm supposed to be lucky in love or money, here I am single, and broke....so maybe trying a new sign out will change my luck! HA.

Anyway, below is my new read. Well new to me. It's from the non-fiction side, yay me! It will have a review up soon. Which reminds me I skipped a review on my last book. No bueno.

Adventures With Mommy and Grandma

The above pictures were taken when Grandma came down for a couple of days this weekend. We had a nice relaxing time.

I have been slacking on the blogging, same old story. I think part of the reason is that there is so much I don't share with. I don't want my blog to be a fake, or a false representation of our reality, but the world wide web is a big place and I don't want a bunch of my business floating around. So I am going to try talking about something that has been bothering me lately. Age. I am 24, which I am aware is young, but lately I have felt I am about over the hill. All of a sudden I feel like the fact that I am a single is looming over me. I have lots of time to find the *perfect man* for me. I think the whole 2012 end of the world thing is making it worse. I don't want to be alone (in love) when the world comes to an end. But I refuse to settle. I have also put myself in a position which is almost completely impossible to date. Even if I had the time. I put up these walls and frankly, I have issues. I don't think I am quite 100% ready to be in a realationship anyway, but it does get lonely. Anyway, I am not ready to say much more right now. Maybe I should make my blog private? But I love the blogging community and people being able to find me....things to contemplate.